I installed Mood Tracker on my phone to track my mood everyday. Especially at Printerous. Even if it’s only a month, I just want to know what I thought about Printerous truthfully.
I worked on things (design etc. and quite good.) I wrote this on 24th which means I don’t exactly remember what happened at that time, but it was supposed to be Printerous Business.
I met Bella Axioologie to discuss freelance matter. And she asked me about my vision. What is my vision? And that vision will lead my decisions afterwards. I have told this at CG that my vision is “home”. It’s triple homes. I need to make home for my family, and make myself at home. If I continue working at Printerous, I might not have the chance to work “independently.” Everything on Start-up businesses are so dependent, because it forces you to work on a team. I want to be able to do almost all things alone. But it doesn’t mean that I won’t hire other people to help me succeed in my business. Tho, I just don’t find good reasons to stay. For works that I got recently are website freelances, not making business (such as clothing or book shops for example).
And how kind of her to treat me Popolamama’s Aglio Olio Tuna. She explained her design which was considered mediocre by me. I find her, Olive, and many other people that are so in positive aura or energy—not being crushed by others (at least not in front of their faces). I wonder maybe I’m too negative and so easy to be bullied that almost everybody likes to tease me. Including my plans. Including my work. Take a look at Clara. She almost always disregards my work. She even didn’t give a damn about Bella’s designs (this one is another Bella. It’s Bella S.) Turns out that she thinks Bella has a soft heart that can’t be criticized. In fact it’s not true! (IMHO) I think Bella’s harder than me. In terms of emotions and sensitivity. But she is harder in other aspect too. Maybe she doesn’t like to be criticized. And when it happens to me, all I could do was just small laughs.
So maybe I must try to be so very positive about my work that nobody dares to tease me. Critics are fine. But honestly what Clara did to me were not critics. And so did Art. They just mocked my work without giving SOLUTIONS. And that is what I really hate!!
Urgh I have to stop hating in this post. I will leave eventually.
But yeah, today (20th) I was pretty confused about job offers (for KO offered me a raise to 7.5m).
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